I feel like i try and try and i get nothing for it

And i try to help people under water to land but when im under water i fell like no one is tring to get me and no matter how much i scream and suffer no one comes or tries to get me as i sink further and further down where no one cares

And all i do every day is just show a smiling mask to everyone when im alone i take it off and then just crys like a little *****

And all my mind says it going to get better u will be fine when i tell my self no its not it just going to get worse so stop trying to look on the brighter side it will always just a cruel and dark side

When every i see someone all i do is say positive things and try to be positive in front of every person and goofy when all i have it is worry and guilt just weighing me down further

I dont like to talk about myself and cuz when i talk about my problems i feel like they just throw away on how i feel and my emotions there jjust doing that to lie and then just lie again just to not care then just throw me out cuz im probably just a annoying person that no one cares about where all i have is imagination to pretend my family are next to me trying to make me feel better then it just gets worse i feel im unloved and no one cares

I have that mask on to much that under that mask im just crying and crying not eating cuz i feel like i NEED to suffer i have to suffer and that i don deserve love

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Yas

Okeeyyyy

Oof it say i cant send friend request qwq

Maliyahs-trash#6501

Oh ok :>