Two days later, I was sitting in a game with Callum, I kinda felt shitty that he would get purposely misgendered and shit- and I didn't want that to happen to me also- I didn't confront him because he'd ****ing ignore me even though we were on call- he still ****ing would anyways

I remember avoiding everyone else who was friends with him- since I knew how shitty of people they ****ing were, he was so ****ing ignorant to it, if anything he would probably let it happen to me too to be ****ing honest with you even though he normally said he'd ****ing do shit for me

It was January 10th, around early 10pm or some shit, I remember telling opal shit about those absolute pieces of shit- She told me to cut them off since they were ****ing up my mental health too

I knew I'd have to leave Ava behind at that point- but if anything I did not give a shit

I remember Callum ****ing threatening to commit suicide- since apparently he can't live without me- which turned out to be a ****ing lie

I honestly thought I couldn't trust or love anyone at some point- turns out it was because of him, considering the fact he honestly leaved a ****ing scar in my mental health during October

Around October my life went to absolute shit considering the fact that was when I shown symptoms of psychosis and wanted to die like shit

Most of that worn off when Callum got the **** out of my life

If anything I would of left way ****ing earlier if I didn't ****ing care that much for him

I remember most of the calls we were on- I remember him talking with his family- I honestly didn't give a shit but something felt so ****ing off

Sometimes I forget how much I cared- I'm so ****ing glad I don't give a **** about him now- If anything I don't know if I'd still be here- I had to hold in my anger to say I don't ****ing hate him- knowing me it'd be a massive ****ing lie to say I didn't learn shit from him