If you have seen the last couple of posts my grandma had pancreatic cancer one of the most aggressive kinds of cancer. She did not make it. The night we arrived to see her she fell asleep and never woke up. I never got to say goodbye. As I was unpacking to stay at my grandpas house for the night my grandma took her last breath. I never said goodbye or thank you or complimented her for the last time. If I had my phone I might've been able to tell her bye. Even if it's just three symbols in a configuration to make a word with a thousand meanings it would have been better than nothing. But not a couple of days ago someone stole my phone and I never had the chance. Last summer she took me to go hiking, swimming, we drew, we played tag, then we went ziplining. I loved her. She never deserved to hurt like she did. Never deserved to suffer like she did. She deserved better than the best. She deserved happiness. But she died not being able to say goodbye. And i'm heartbroken. I miss her.