im still very used to fas drawing gui dewdul is ok but it feels off i think im just a fag

idk I wanna talk to someone but at the same time just want to type outmy thoughts and if anyone wants to talk then thats cool but if no one does then thats also cool. I find this site to be very good at that type of communication

something that irks me with my 2 current friends, even tho I love them so much and theyre all i have, is they dont take me seriously and its also been really hard on me. I had a bad breakdown on my way to work and I told them I probably couldnt hang out with them after my shift and they immediately just told me to kill myself and all that stfff which is funny but at that point in time I was doing so bad it was not what I needed to hear and even when I told one why I wasnt going after I calmed down they still just were like "you should still come over and get high" which like yeah I guess its nice to get my mind off of it but the wgole trigger for the meltdown was going to this friends hosue. I cant tell if they actuallt liek me or not cause on one hand they never take me seriouslt and on the other hand they want to hang out all the time.

holy yap I just had to get that off my chest I guess I got really sucked into typing that

I love my cat let me get pictures of her

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look at my cat and tell me how adorable she is

I think im gonna buy a kamvas pro 13 tablet cause I got paid recently and just forgot I got paid and its like 50% off thats insane

i tried to buy it and it wont let me so thats a downer.

ok but is my cat cute

On a serious note i think my main problem I have with them, since they are actually my *only* friends, is that they take each other seriously but just not me. Only time they take me seriously is when the serious topic is about them and they need help. it just hurts ya kno? but I think it'll be okay with them cause I do have a therapist to talk to this stuff about, its just I dont see her that often so it gets overwhelming at times so I just need an outlet to get it out, but once I get it out the first time I feel a lot better and so I dont take their non-serious attitude to heart. Im just over all a really sensitive person so I tend to overact, mainly when it comes to friend conflicts. I dont blame my friends for not wanting to be serious with me, and at the end of the day I wont ever stop being friends w/ them cause of it cause I appreciate them a lot.

the more I thought about this topic the more I realized that its really my fault since I also dont take myself that seriously infront of them when its face to face, and messaging them about how their lacking in a friendship is just something I cannot do due to just thinking they will leave me for it. It's all stuff I need to work with myself and try to do better at. I really appreciate your help tho, I feel bad that you spent time on typing all this stuff out for, but Im also really relieved to have someone to just talk to about it. so thank you :3

you should go to bed if u r tired tho cause sleep is very important for the human body