i really liked him as a person and i think he goes by a different name now actually

andy thats it

i remember he went by another name and coincidebtally another friend of mine had the same name, so every time i spoke to that froend i would be reminded of andy . js remembered that

all of the people i really liked here just kind of lived in my head after i left. i would see media that they were interested and think of them and see or hear their names and be reminded of them

maybe ill summon him somehow by talking so mucb i dunno

i feel like though, i would probably have a hard time talking to him after such a long time without speaking. like i can easily hold polite conversation with someone, but at somepoint it becomes a bit awkward after you run out of the basic conversation material and then i just dont know what to do. this is another one of those times where i kinda wish i just never cut the person off because my anxiety just kinda led me to doing anything to try and escape the feeling of whatever it was that was making me anxious and it makes me so . not js sad but like . it makes me feel down in a specofic way i cant pinpoint

maybe regretful. and nostalgiac

deadass he probably isnt even aware that i still think about him

if i ever get the chance i think it would be nice to talk with him again. even if we dont really reestablish connection in any way, because im sure were far different and have likely grown apart from each other, it would atill be nice to catch up in a way