itz,, fine. thankz for the concern tho! i just,, god,,,,,,, ive been thinking about this a lot and literally everytime i go to sleep i have nightmarez abt having to talk to this guy again and i reallyyy dont wanna do that. and like!! i get mad at myself for not being able to get over it since itz not a big deal but it iz for ME! i didnt know someone not talking to me for monthz then yelling my deadname at me while im having a meltdown nn going nonverbal then touching my shoulder would be the most traumatic thing 2 happen 2 me but here we are,,, i guess what made thingz az bad az it feelz iz the fact that i waz already in so much pain waz the fact that i waz getting misgendered, getting yelled at, and having someone touch me when it makez me uncomfortable especially during sensory overload and an anxiety attack. and i couldnt even talk. i wanted 2 scream i wanted 2 tell him to get away from me but i couldnt all i could do waz cry i couldnt even move. sorry 4 rambling