as most of you know, when this account was in its prime i was SUCH a little asshole. i can’t imagine how many ppl i hurt with the shit i said and how utterly annoying i was but i’m very sorry for being such an inconvenience for so long

dear god that last apology was godawful ! anyways i'm rewriting this out of guilt because i felt like my apology wasn't good enough/too vague- i want you all to know that when i was 11/12 on this website i said the n word and i think it needs to be addressed rather than brushed off or ignored because i was a kid. the guilt of it has been EATING me and i would like you all to know that i feel terrible about how i used to behave on this site- the way i made people feel was unacceptable and really horrid, and the people i associated with were equally as problematic as i was (not to minimise my own fault). i was an impressionable kid and hung out with some really awful people almost twice my age, but i don't want this to be used as an excuse (but rather an explanation), again, pls don't minimise what i did.

i dont acc know if anyone reads this ?? but i hope they do so anyways coming back to this for the third time in late 2021 bc last night i had another look at some of the language i used to use a couple years ago through going through screenshots in my older photos (because i used to screenshot a lot of stuff randomly) and discord dms, etc, and i can honest to god say that i'm really ****ing ashamed of loosely using slurs as some ****ed up point of humour, and i genuinely find it hard to put into words how sorry i am, and everyone who was hurt or felt small in hearing me, a creator they followed/saw frequently on this site use horrific language deserves the biggest apology in the world. i don't know how far into the future this will be, but if my money situation is stable at around 16-18 i will try hard to find ways to pay reparations.