(Warning this has some sensitive topics so if you cant handle certian topics do not proceed) well, I feel like i want to just give up on life but i know if i try to i will be guilty before i do and its so annoying, i feel like i was a mistake because i dont like when my parents always take my side i dont want to feel like im special i want to feel...average. i want to feel like i own everything i want, i dont want to be the special one, im not gifted or special. im useless i dont need any of this.