****ing hell Everything. Everything. It all should ****ing die or vanish. I want to die. And at this point im so ****ing bored that if take others down with me. Pretending. All I ever ****ing see. Jackasses pretending to me. Me pretending to everyone. Pretending to my ****ing self. Pretending I'm recovering. Pretending I'm better. Pretending I haven't done so much horrible shit. Pretending I'm a good person. Pretending I have a great family. Pretending I still know my friends. Pretending I'm sane. Pretending It's all in my head. ****ing hell I'm going to snap. It's inevitable. Somones going to die. Wether it's me I don't ****ing care.