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jellythecoolone 
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jellythecoolone[OP]
14.06.2024 04:55
LinkAnyways I’m gonna complain
jellythecoolone[OP]
14.06.2024 05:02
LinkWhy the hell do I keep trying. I suck at art, and it’s the only thing that I am talented at. So many people are better than me I’m nothing. People have better everything than me. I suck. I’m so damn tired of this I suck. Whenever I read or watch somethin that’s really good I always feel this way, like they made something that I could never comprehend to ever make something as amazing. I could never make music, stories, or art as good as some people. It’s just painful. I’m not good at the things I’m good at. I have no meaning. And to come to terms with that hurts a lot. That’s the whole reason I’m like this. Why I wanted to hurt other why I wanted to hurt myself or kms. The thing is I don’t even try. I want to create a manga or something like the summer hikaru died, or make music like the gazette. I want my mind and creations to be in display. But they suck. Honestly. I have no talent. I have nothing. There’s no point to me living other than I want to live. And honestly. Most things, are pretty boring.
jellythecoolone[OP]
14.06.2024 05:07
LinkI’m gonna sound like a weeb for this, but I really wanna go to Japan. I love their culture a lot. I’m obsessed with the gazette. And the buildings in Japan are pretty. I wanna go there before I die for sure. Ugh. I hate myself so much. I hate myself so much. I hate when people lie to me. I couldn’t do that “oh ayumu you’re amazing! And so kind” Nu uh stop damn lying! “Wow ayumu you’re so talented you could do that” no I can’t! I hate it when my parents do it too. I know for sure they’re biased. I love my family. Why I don’t hurt myself anymore is because of them. When they found out it scared the shit outta me. Honestly worst feeling in the world. To make your parents sad. Would love to do it again but it’s not worth the chance of them finding out. It’s too scary, probably the most scary thing in the world.
jellythecoolone[OP]
14.06.2024 05:08
LinkAaaaaah. I wish I was someone else. I wish I was someone cool. I’m not cool. I suck. I wish people would love me.
jellythecoolone[OP]
14.06.2024 05:08
LinkThis sucks ass.
Hm... I think you shouldn't compare yourself to anyone other then yourself. In art, in everything.
Also, I don't think you suck at art. I look up to you, A LOT! It all comes with practice. Even the great artists were bad and not good at art at some point. You seem very passionate about art. So don't bring yourself down. In some years, you will be proud of yourself that you didn't give up!
Man! That’s so sweet! Dude that actually means a lot you’re really kind
keep in mind mkst of the artists and manga authors you look into are well into there 30's/40's ofc there are exeptions but a huge majority of them spent YEARS getting to where they were. your still young, you have so much time and opportunity to grow. also, you dont need to be good for people to enjoy your art. if they cared only abt the quality theyd go look at ai art but thats not whats important its WHAT you create. even if there "bad" doodles, people will find joy in it.
theres nothing wrong with feeling unsatisfied with your art, most artists are never satisfied with there art but without creativity it just becomes a chore (something a lot of realy skilled artists is loosing there spark because they obsessed with skill)
also likeing other cultures is always cool! it becomes a ishue when you romanticize it and ignore the ishues and problems a place has but likeing Japan's culture is awesome, dosent mater where as long as ur respectful abt it no one can give you shit.
Ah thanks man! You’re really cool and sweet, that really does make me feel a bit better, I needa remind myself that these ppl have more experience than me
lastly you are cool. but looking cool to others and feeling good about yourself are two different things.
most of those "cool" people you see who dont care about how people view them are actual narcissists and altho they come of as "cool, unbotherd, confident" there quite unpleasant ppl to know irl.
on the other had there are people who also dont care about what othere say about them yet are still nice and freindly and seem to have everything together. and those people can be like that because they hold love for themselves, ofc they still feel isicure. evryone feels insicure (its human to worry about how others veiw you, its a good skill to be aware of yourself socially) butits important to defreantiate the two.
you are cool, i assure you people will look at you and hold envy or there may be people who even find you attractive. because people naturally look at the good aspects of others that they themselves lack. whats important for you is to find happyness in yourself
that may require talking to a professional or finding a good freind/suport group but it is possible. there can /will be a time where you can be happy with yourself as long as you keep working tward it
