last night, i woke up to get some water, after i did, i had a sharp pain in my heart that i could only describe as,, hurt. i overheard my parents talking about giving me away, and i started having a mental breakdwon. i fake a smile every god damn day despite if it makes me look stupid or not, i try and hide the fact that i am being torn apart day by day and every one of my so called 'friends' hardly give a crap. i am starting to loose patience, i don't know how much longer i can go on faking these emotions. i feel like i am on an emotional rollercoaster and i want to get off but i can't.