Ok so i'm a mix between spanish and arabic, my father is arabic and my mother spanish. when i was born my grandfather(from my fathers side) died and my father when under extreme depression since my aunts and uncles didn't tell him that my grandpa died until 5 months. We don't know why but my father never got to go to the funeral. They decided to tell him a few weeks before my birth. My father refused to work and my mother had to work despite being pregnant and having no one to help him. She when under depression and the day i was born, both of my parents were depressed. My father still refused to work and my mother had to work 2 weeks after giving birth. Then as i got older religion was a problem, my dad is muslim and my mom is christian, they hated eachothers religion and basically competed with eachother on what religion i would choose. I'm not allowed to celebrate anything, no christmas no halloween, not even my own b-day. Ive never been to a b-day party not even my own. So when i was around 5 i got into