I'm a pathetic 14 year old that is worth nothing to anyone anymore. I wanna load the rifle in my dad's closet and do everyone a fxcking favor by getting rid of the weirdo that tries their best to do something right but ends up fxcking everything up

Either that or get a sharp enough piece of glass to cut my thigh open and bleed out. I give up an everything in the God forsaken world. Just put me down like a wild animal already, I don't care.

A buck knife would do best, easy to cut through the skin with one or those.

I have no clue anymore, it's just a strong urge that won't go away for a month, no clue why.