It hurts a lot so I've been taking my pain out on other people. I know you hate when other people say this but I'll lash out to the way I feel. I won't just sit there I'll act out to the way I feel and I guess this is part of that acting out when I say I'm ****ing depressed sleep deprived and sad uwu and angry at myself. And I'm still overwhelmed when I read that she was "Active Yesterday" but yet she "doesn't have" her phone uwu The best I can do is for myself to take some time and realize what I'm saying or doing or I can just walk away like a coward hoping I never turn back like almost every user has tried to do but never succeeded uwu

So I guess the best choice I have rn is to just try and control my feelings and myself until she gets back TwT

or if she ever is gonna get back.