Not really...

My friend has been ignoring me since friday. Shes my girlfriend. I think shes found a new best friend and shes ignoring me. Im trying to tell my parents im gay but i dont know how. And out of the blue i just... i want to hurt people, and i hate my dog even though ive loved her all my life. Im forgetting so much about my grandpa and i only have a few memories left and its making me sad. My dogs clise to dying yet i dont care. I feel like im fat. When i come home and im alone i go to my parents candy stash and i eat a lot of it. And i dont get why people are being so nice to me now, its confusing me and being cinfused makes me angry. And i dont have many other friends irl that i see often to have a new best friend with. I feel like my life is falling apart honestly. I snapped at Lydia earlier.

My friend and my sudden lack of caring.

Its worse thsn it looks. I want to get rid of the toxic people so things gget better. I feel like im turning insane i feel like i want to stab someone or trap them. I hate it.

I know i do, but there are some people who i want to hurt. I want to hurt them so that they scream out in pain. That they beg me to stop. And i know its wrong to think that but i cant help it.

Eh... maybe i can buy a pillow and use it as a stabbing pillow.