i cry myself at night hoping for a sliver of tiredness, i can't sleep, think, or even try to keep myself alive at the smallest, i am constantly lightheaded and with an extreme concern of insomnia, i have otherwise "reasons" to live while othermost ide rather just stay in bed and at least get sleep, i have been awake for at lease 21 hours a day with no side of tiredness the only way i can sleep is when i just close my eyes as i slowly wake up later with intant regrets of opening my eyes as a unidentified entity stares at me and walks toward me, i close my eyes and hope for the best, i wake up the same day. 3 hours of sleep at the most i research how this might effect my mental and social health. otherwise another day is another sleep paralysis