Idek what is jokes so this make everythng worse ;_; i hardly have the energy to text anyone back not even my closest friends so idk if i should hust like not have friends or somethintn because i cant maintain a conversation with anyone and then i ghost people for weeks or months and its like they shouldnt try so hard if i am not good friend in return andi do not respond like it just drains me so bad sometimes to reply i cant hold a conversation without wantijg to cry cuz i have to mask everything for everyone and nohdoy reallynknows me so ;_; it just gets really tiring doing the same thing over and over. Whoever invented small talk btw kys

I love my friends but everythijg is so tiring i wasnt posting as much the past days until today and ny tiktok died for a week or two because i was like avoidijg social media for some reason idk ive just wanted tonbe more alone lately

I wanna be a better friend but im so tired and already burnt out im not really tryijg to spiral out of control again like i did in 2023 and 2024 because i forced myself to do things constantly everything is like a chore just staying awake everyday is difficukt idk if u dont wanna be friend ajymore hust dm me or like comment idk man but if u. Are my friends thne jusy know i dont think this will change anytime. Soon so just remember that

Srry for dis post i been meaning to make it but ive been avoiding social media like i said and today i posted a lot for some reason and i finally posted a new tiktok but yeah illbprobably be offline more agaij tomorrow and the following days idk love y all