I feel like I’m gonna explode like I’m going insane or something I thought I wouldn’t feel as lonely as I used to before but now I feel empty ykwim 😭 like I don’t belong anywhere like no one actually likes me I’ve changed myself so many times and I just get meaner and meaner I literally suck if I could go back to the way I was when I didn’t beg for attention when my parents actually believed in me I would have been way happier but I always ruin it it’s like there’s something wrong with me that affects everything I can’t have anything good or else I just ruin it I wanna be better but IT NEVER WORKSS what is wrong with me