its never quiet enough. The silence doesn’t last long enough for me. Everyday I hear overlapping voices in my head and I genuinely can’t do this anymore. Everything’s happening all at once and I can’t do anything but let it happen. I can’t help my friends. I may just be making this worse. What good am I if I can’t do one thing right. Im exhausted, mentally and physically. I don’t know how I am still alive but I don’t know if it’ll stay that way for long. Everyday my will to live lessens. I love my friends so much. My closest ones. Only them because all everyone else ever ****ing does is hurt me and I’m tired. And yet I keep hurting everyone else. I don’t mean to hurt anybody but it happens. All I’m filled with is hatred, and fear. I am barely getting by at this point. I just want this to be easier. I want my friends to be happier, to be in a better spot than they are now. I want to help them but I can’t do anything. Im sorry to all my friend’s. I wish I could do more to help you guys. And then my parent‘s-

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