Well, I'm starting to feel like I'm not a good person, like i cant seem to be happy when im around people. so I put on an act and bottle up my feelings, then if the bottle bursts, I lose friends, family pushes away from mw, everything oes to shit. I cant keep the people around me happy, my grades are slipping, I'm always mad, sad, or irritated, whats wrong with me, I thought I could secretly vent by making these sad or disturbing drawings but now I'm making people online disturbed.

but nthing good comes out of disturbing the people around me, broken promises, lost friends, sad people, I feel all of that is because of me

well even my family hates me. I argue with them and say hurtful things, I dont feel liike a good person. Am I doing something wrong?

Thanks, you know, I'm really glad I found you on here. I'm glad I let this out, I may still feel pretty bad, but venting was a start