No! No! You didn’t do anything wrong! It’s just...well...Yesterday my brother got his finger slammed through our hotels front door. The front door is really heavy so when it closed on his finger, he like screamed in pain and honestly, I didn’t know what to do...He blacked o it once but his finger just went blue and his nail is most likely going to come off but that’s not why I’m upset even though I love my bro and I care about it him. It’s the way my parents talked about it that upsets me...They just.. They would say stuff like, “Oh well you can’t come with me because apparently my kids don’t listen to me and I have to babysit them.” It hurts having to listen to them talk like that about you in front of your face. I honestly just wanted to be alone but my step mom said “You can’t keep running away from your problems.” I was taking out the trash so when I was done, I just start crying. I felt like a failure..Why do they keep me around if I’m just never going to get anything right? I’m never going to be a vet

Like I want to be and I’m never going to be what they want me to be. I just feel so stupid and dumb and I don’t understand why they kept me alive when I tried to kill myself. I don’t understand...I really don’t. I’m not helpful and no matter how hard I try, I’m just a stupid girl who doesn’t know what she’s doing. I feel like a failure and maybe I am...My mind keeps telling me to cut but I keep saying that I don’t need it, but what if I need it? One tiny cut won’t hurt..It can release all my pain and help me right? ...I’m fooling myself here. Nothing I do will make this stupid pain in my chest go away. Every day that I get lectured or yelled at, my chest feels like someone is stabbing me. I’m tired. So ****ing tired Aaron...I-I wish you were here with me...

Hey you still there?

.. -tight hug-