Nothing is getting better at home, i feel so much stress but i cant get a break, they dont see that, and if i try to tell my friends, i feel as ill be shut out and that my feelings and all this dont mtatter but does it really matter? Am i just overreacting about my feelings?? I cant do this anymore, i hate it so much as well when she just disregards my feelings all like it all doesnt matter, shes found out i cut before in the past with safety pins, but she doesnt evenknow that i cut myself with a blade, once these cuts fully heal, ill do it again and again and again, i cant do this anymore, im planning to kill myself sometime soon during school holiday, but i dont, but i do since i hate bow everthing is going at the moment and im scared to grow up im scared to be an adult, I genuinely cant do this anymore I know I needhelp but I'm scared to open up to anyone even if they're some of my closest friends, I doubt I'll fully open up to how I feel