So I live in a VERRRRYYYYY "Christian" family who do not agree with being in the lgbtq+ community. I put Christian in quotation marks because they are very judgmental sometimes and a bit homophobic. It feels that way at least. I don't know what to do because I am pretty new to the community. Ive been in the closet for 5 years. I was 11 when I first found out I "wasn't like other kids" I had crushes on others despite if they were the same gender as me or if they identified as something completely different than me or other people. I was ashamed of it because I was taught that being gay or being transgender wasn't okay according to God. I've always disagreed with that. I tried to ignore it for so long. To push it down and keep it at bay. To the point where it really hurt me mentally. I was always a bigger girl ,tall and very socially awkward. I had a lot of trauma and other kids thought I was weird or "different". So I was bullied. To the point where I ran away from school alot. Fast forward to now. I am 16.