I'm so tired

No matter how much pain I feel it's never enough for anyone I'm so drained from maintaining relationships that I stopped maintaining them all together Because I knew if it came down to it where I stopped messaging completely then they wouldn't notice There's only one connection I care about now He's the only one who matters Nothing and no one else is worth the effort If I just stick to this mindset I'll stop feeling so lonely And once he's gone too I won't have any meaningful connections I'll finally be able to do it with peace of mind I won't let anyone trick me into thinking it's not the way either I won't let anyone make me believe in false hope I'm never going to get better at this rate This is the only way