I really like this guy, he’s amazing and he’s nice and funny and he acts really good I guess around me. He isn’t really that physically attractive, he has bad acne and he sometimes shows up with weirdly oily hair I guess. But he’s so amazing. He drives me insane but. He’s gay. And that wouldn’t be a problem if I wasn’t ****ing trans

I don’t even think he’s ever consider liking me. Because I’m trans. Im not a real guy.

He likes real boys. And sometimes he messes up and refers to me with she/her. And he doesn’t even apologize or acknowledge it I don’t think I’m a real boy to him

Which, I’m not. I don’t know why I let it bother me.

He’s not obligated to respect me or kiss my shoes or anything, that’s not what I’m trying to say

I just wish I could like, be in relationships as I boy, not as a trans boy

I wish I could just be as real as everyone else