so bored
20.09.2018
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JynxTheHybrid
20.09.2018 01:15
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AppleTriggeredCHALD[OP]
20.09.2018 01:16
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well i hope you feel better soon, im going through crap myself.
its really personal, and, srrysrry, but i dont really wanna talk about it, im just letting it go, bringing it up might hit me again
i don't know. I think it may seem stupid but, when ever i feel alone or sad, i normally watch a show or a movie to kinda escape reality. Recently I had been getting into theater and wanted to try out for the musical (since i had been in the play last year). I tried out, but midway though the additions our babysitter(not really, she just drives us) came and for some reason, pulled me out, thinking nothing about how much this meant to me. I was not allowed to finish the auditions. Today was the second day of the auditions, i was feeling hopeful. I really,really,really wanted a big part. The results came out. I had gotten the worst part. Not even a named part. Just part of the ensamble. I felt so disappointed. I gave it my all, hadden't I? I tryed my best. But I felt shame, shame in myself. You wanted to prove you could be good at something, you wanted to be a star, you wanted your friends to see you the next morning and congratulate you. see how that turned out. Voices in my head repeated themselves,-
The wall started inching closer, I felt stupid, i was just a musical, right? It's not like it's the only thing you had a chance at being good at, right?...right?
to be honest, that has happened to me many times, it sucks, but to be apart of something is amazing in it self. I have gotten part of small gatherings many times, but even though it was nothing big, i gave it my all. and ended up having fun, you just have to keep trying, it may suck.. but it'll end up being a hilarious and fun expearence.
yeah, thanks. I feel a little better now 〔´∇｀,your a good freind.