Fun fact 😘
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-BonelessApple- 
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16.03.2021
10 comments
-BonelessApple-[OP]
16.03.2021 05:23
LinkY'know at this point I'm not even trying to be 'edgy'
Or gain attention
I genuinely
Despise myself
Lmao y'all think I'm confident on the internet n shit
I was told I'm not insecure lmao
Half of the time I'm ****ing faking that shit
To make myself feel better
To make people like me
I act like I'm okay when I'm not
It got so ****ing back yesterday I was on the verge of crying right in a zoom with someone
And I hate myself for it
Oho and don't get !e started on actually insecurities
Can't ****ing stand it
I do my best
To make the people I care about, and people who care about me happy when I just
Feel like ****ing shit
I try so ****ing hard
And I'm so over it
-BonelessApple-[OP]
16.03.2021 05:29
LinkI act like everythings okay
I never ****ing fess up to my own feelings and end up hurting myself more
I'm afraid it might get bad enough I hurt someone else
I feel like I'm always apologizing
Putting the blame on myself
I act like its alright
Constantly
Show no sign of actually being upset when half of the time
I'm in ****ing tears
God this is making me think about her
She made me so happy
Every night we would talk
Even when I was crying she was there to lighten me up and talk
She,,, was the only person that,,, I wasn't afraid of going to
She didn't scare me I
Fjfjfhfhfhfhhfh ****ing loved her
I miss her
A lot
I
Get so angry when people bring her up yet I can't get her out of my mind
Its hard
It really is
To
Forget about people
That you care a lot about
I regret getting so angry with them both and,,,, one even just, shadowed us
Its my fault she cut off,,, our relationship
Should have kept my damn mouth shut
I was supposed to be there as a foundation,, supp
-BonelessApple-[OP]
16.03.2021 05:30
LinkSupoorting her but,,, had to ****ing speak my mind and ruin all that
😩😩😩tomarrow
Do not ask if I'm fine
If I say I am I'm probably not as usual
Im not gonna go with the cliche type of response and I know someone else with say this too bjtypu can talk to me and I actually understand how you feel because I used to feel like that
If you want can make a private anim but if you dont wanna thats ok but I am here
I,,, promised someone I wouldn't really,,, say everything to anyone that it would stay in that chat but,,, I'd like to talk yeah if that'd be alright
Won't explain everything though
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I’m sorry I wasn’t on to be here for you during this ,
And if I knew you felt this way I would’ve said something so long ago , don’t blame your self for other peoples stuff arc , and if you feel a certain way you shouldn’t have to feeli guilty for doing basic human things , I love you as one of my close friends and I want to see you thrive and be happy ,I know it’s hard with how you view yourself , and I can’t just automatically change how you feel , but now that I know I want to try and help in anyway I can