I HAVE TO BE BETTER THAN EVERYONE. I HAVE TO BE THE FASTEST BEST ARTIST MOST PRETTIEST GIRL THE KINDEST PERSON I HAVE TO BE PERFECT IM SO ****ING TIRED ALL THE TIME BLAMING MYSELF AND SELF SABOTAGING IM TIRED OF LYING TO EVERYONE I JUST WANT TO BE A KID I HATE THIS I HATE MYSELF I TRY SO HARD BUT NOTHING EVER GOES MY WAY IM SO ****ING SICK. anyways i just need to have my head empty and heart full