I rant/vent out dumb feelings
by:
ConnonButFandoms 
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26.12.2019
4 comments
ConnonButFandoms[OP]
26.12.2019 03:16
LinkEverything has been really stressful lately
and I feel like a really bad person for everything
my guilt levels have been high
and are slowly getting higher
and I can't wait for the year to be over
finally
or I could cut it short
I never know anymore
some days are wonderful,sweet and love filled
and the very next day with be filled with suicidal thoughts,anxiety and guilt
I don't know if I wanna stay this way,
as a random guessing game everyday on how I'm gonna feel
ConnonButFandoms[OP]
26.12.2019 03:19
Linkall my new/old trauma have been non-stop in my mind
and I barely enjoy anything I enjoyed before
being fully honest not even being alive is enjoyable
but I just have to act happy until the right person that's trustful,reliable and I can explain all my feelings to
but I'm getting tired of waiting around for that day to come
ConnonButFandoms[OP]
26.12.2019 03:21
Linkand all I ever want anymore is just to see the past people I cared for and loved
seeing how they are
I miss them all
everything in my body has been reacting with my anger/stress/suicidal thoughts and seems a lot more cramped,small and empty
sometimes I cant even feel my insides
I just
Feel nothing
ConnonButFandoms[OP]
26.12.2019 03:23
Linkits so nerve-wrecking to feel nothing
to almost swear your whole body has disappear
but thats what everyone wants
for me to disappear
I'll ****ing disappear
Sure
:)