she makes gives me so much confidence while at the same time she makes me feel so so small. she has that advantage over me, and it hurts. ive given someone access to my heart, and they ruined it. I cant anymore I regret it, I feel alone even though im really not. in this huge world, there are a billion people, though I feel like im the only one. :/ I hate it, really I want to trust someone, but I cant anymore