I dont know. I have no idea whats wrong with me. I dont even know if im me. This body and life dont feel like mine. I feel like i dont know anything about anyone. Who am i? Am i losing you? I feel like i cant be around enough to keep you around me. I love you but i dont truley know what you feel. I cant trust anyone. Not even this person that i think is myself

It started years ago. Ive been hiding it cuz im scared of what people think of me. I havent even told my own mother. I feel like a horrible person all the time. I cant hold it in anymore but i think i have to.