why do i feel guilty about wanting to forget all about those feelings even though she might not even care or even see any of the shit i say. I also have an extreme urge to cut right now dude it ****ing sucks. my nose is killing me too idfk why-- my eyes burn like hell and i just asked my auntie if my eyes looked red and she said yes like hella red-- duuude wtff

i just want to like explode and die. forever and ever and never come back i forgot about oct. 20th tff im rescheduling !!!!!! 'October 26th guys best day ever !!!!!!!!!!!1 im killing myself i can NOT ****inh live on with my mom always nagging me about my grades and then mentioning how my sistes' grades are better than mine, LIKE SHUT UP HOE IDGAF IM TRYING MY HARDEST. unfortunately my mother will never get me therapy, becsuse if its not on the rez !!!! she dont want it, lazy ass. Cant take her deranged child to therapy because its not on the reservation, thats just a sad excsue of a mother **** you guys wtfvysht

goddghbnmokp my eyes literallyITCH but i dont want yo clae my eyes OUTEFJUIJ