this is ONLY for ani.
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Karizma[OP]
20.01.2025 16:34
Linkone thing, i am not apologizing to anyone else besides Ani, this is not for any of you to discuss besides me and them. This is a conversation between us and you all dont have a say in it./nm
Karizma[OP]
20.01.2025 16:40
LinkIn the past, I have been actively racist, homophobic, and rude just in general to Ani and a few others. I have made racist comments, comebacks, and names, as well as making fun of/not believing in someone having struggles of their own.
I will not sugar coat it, I have been a horrible person. I was a horrible person. I had bullied Ani, and verbally tortured them for around a year, and thinking about it makes me sick. I have actively, in her words, ruined her life, and I apologize. I know not if this will even get to her, and if it does, I am not asking for forgiveness, neither a second chance. I am expressing my guilt. Despite my past actions and what I have done to try and run away from this were wrong. I should've made this sooner, I should've apologized sooner before it had to come to this.
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Karizma[OP]
20.01.2025 16:43
LinkI have severly damaged her, and I, neither her know if she'll recover. All I ask is that you take time to see that since then, I have changed. Things have become different, and I have been taking steps to improve myself.
Thank you for your time, and I hope for you a fast recovery,
-Vii
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Karizma[OP]
20.01.2025 16:45
LinkIf you'd like to talk and/or ask questions, my dms on discord are open, always.
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Karizma[OP]
20.01.2025 16:46
Link(By the way, I have deleted my past posts on this matter as they were not constructive, and were just borderline aggressive)
well, you first admitted to it all, then you denied it in another post. i want to know what the purpose of that was? and you got a ton of people who believed you and backed you up.
Hey, not my place to say anything but I will not lie, every younger teenager has this phase. 12-14 is that age where you REALLY start to test boundaries and act like a complete psychopath. then you get a little older and go WOW that was insane and cringe. sometimes get it earlier than others ( i understand you just recently turned 14, happy late birthday!) so i'm just saying that?? what you were doing was actually completely within the realm of behavior for someone of that age. not saying it's okay, just letting you know you CAN go easy on yourself. You clearly do not have those same opinions and are a lot more tame now. Again, im not excusing it, just contextualizing it.
I went through the EXACT thing. Like to a T. where i bullied peoeple and was a complete racist homophobic bigot. and then I lost a really close friend of mine and immediately swapped sides. since then i've grown a lot, and you'll always have more growth to do. This behavior is not out of the norm and this will just have to be something you understand and live with.
Remember you were just getting into middle school when all this happened. You were not socially aware enough to really think about other people's feelings, you were probably just thinking about yourself (which, let me reiterate, is NORMAL for someone of that age group). The guilt will try and eat you alive but you please remember you were still young enough to play in the mcdonald's play place . When you both turn 16 this will be like. literally nothing. Some people hold grudges longer than others but that's not your problem. you clearly know better now and are capable of thinking about people other than yourself now.