Also been edging on a mental breakdown for the past two days just because of a situation that’s completely irrational for me to even think about Keep having to tell myself that I’m not SOOOO important that one person wants to make it their life mission to tear all my friends away from me I used to like..never be able to do that I’d just get insanely jealous and then freak out at everyone Now I just kinda get jealous and wait it out..

I have to realize it’s partly my fault too I’m not giving them as much attention I guess Plus I can get pretty boring and according to a few people kinda *****y too

No one wants to be around a person like that

I should be happy my friends are getting along with my other friends But there’s still that part of me that’s upset Like..y’all are talking more than we do damn that’s That’s crazy. I’m scared he’ll get bored of me too I’m not that interesting but I still want to I still I

I dunno It’s kinda hard not to cry lmao I just want to be able to catch people’s attention again. Make some friends who are genuinely interested in what I have to say With no strings Everyone gets excited to share their art though I can’t be selfish and demand they look at me I feel like I’m falling behind again And I don’t even go to school anymore Whatever I have no right to feel jealous If I can’t be interesting, creative and quick Then I can’t keep up That’s that It’s not like I can do much more than just keep practicing

Look at me yappin again I’ll go Find something to do..