Idk i miss my dad i just push that side of the familys feelings aside and isolate myself from them because i dont want to deal with my dad actually telling me he does not love me to my face after i tell him who i really am

Idk what to do i dont have time for emotions so im putting it off buts its been over a year now and i havent spoken to him or anyone on thay side of the family i miss my sisters so much

Theyre growing up without me

What wwould i even say to them when i see their faces again

Im scared

I cant fix it

Thanks but i dont know if its ok when they grow up theyre not going to remenber anything we did together theyre not going to know who i am and all thr time we spent together maybe someday i can rekindle omy relationships eith themthank you for wishing me well