Today is horrible
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-Melancholy-Tea- 
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07.12.2023
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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:19
LinkI woke up on time today
Even a little earlier than normal but my laundry wasn’t quite dry so I took out whatever I wasn’t going to wear today and put it to the side so I could just try the clothes I needed and while that was up I did my hair and even ate breakfast and once my clothes were done I noticed my tank top that NEEDS to go underneath my outfit is missing
My sister must’ve lost that’s TOO at the ****ing laundry mat
And I was looking through my closet and I had nothin else to wear that was in dress code so I started crying and looking around the house because MAYBE I dropped it but no it only made me cry harder and my mom was like “omg let’s just go” and so they left without while I was crying my eyes out
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:19
LinkJust kinda been asleep all day I wish I hadn’t woke up
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:24
LinkThis always comes back to wanting to impress my mom or at least make her chill tf out
I realize we have the same mental illness though so I don’t understand why I’m trying to do what I can to avoid pissing her off if she’s literally a ticking time bomb
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:25
LinkI’m just a little kid
Everytime I get better 8 subconsciously want to show it off so my mom sees and then boom it’s the daily argument routine
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:26
LinkI thought I was doing well enough to go back to school I really really did
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:26
LinkI got burnt out after the third week lmao that’s just pathetic
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:30
LinkYk how you have to use a support trellis for things like bell peppers tomato’s and beans and stuff? Because the fruit they bear grows so heavy that it’s difficult to grow upright, and more often than not if the fruit touches the ground it’ll rot. A good supportive trellis can keep it up though
To avoid it
I don’t have one though
I have a ****ing stick if that’s the case a stick with a few small branches because..they can’t do much but “I’m sorry, hope you feel better” gives it a small wavering chance
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:36
LinkThere’s every reason for me to kill my self I don’t know why
I’m so weak and hungry all the time because we can’t even afford to get food for the ****ing weak
It’s so distracting to feel that sharp pain in my stomach every time I see something I like
I’m so frustrated because they said “your money is yours to spend on whatever treats you want” when here I am barely having enough money to buy the groceries that YOU said you’d buy.
I still barely have any clothes for the winter I don’t even own a pair of JEANSSSS
Maybe I can go to a thrift store for those,,I can’t just keep ordering stuff with only 20$ in my account because I had to buy groceries for my siblings and I
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:37
LinkThink of a solution instead of being upset about it
It’ll come up later when it happens again but by then hopefully you’ll have a session with your therapist or something…
I can’t ystdf5g
How can I help solve my own problems before anyone else’s without being selfish
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:39
LinkI got this, I can put myself before my family because honestly..they don’t deserve the time of day 😇
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
07.12.2023 20:43
LinkI’m gonna go starve now because my stomach hurts soghtbad
Bruh,that’s literally not cool
🫂 you deserve better
Your parents should’ve helped you
Looking forward for the day you find the love of ur life that will care for you no matter what happens