because im kinda at a point in my life where i dont wanna die because i like a lot of what i have in interests and my boyfriend and my online friends but i want people to take me genuinely seriously irl when i say i am someone whos actually SUFFERING and i want people to actually leave me alone

tldr i wanna od but i dont wanna die and my dad has anticoagulants that's really the only way i could probably overdose besides like ****ing pussy medication like paracetamol and ibuprofen

could anyone be the suicide expert here ty

JOKING im googling too im not trusting strangers on the internet completely ok maybe if u guys don't abuse or groom me its ok