it was all my fault
11 comments
Moonstar[OP]
24.09.2023 00:57
Linki thought we were going to have a family together
we wanted to get married and have a house and have kids together
its only been a week and hes already moved on and he keeps telling me about this coworker of his that he "has a crush on"
but i shouldnt be sad or crushed or anything because its my fault
and when he broke up w me he did it v politely and said we'd still be friends but i kept hurting him and now he wants me to move out
im a monster
im a monster
im a monster
Moonstar[OP]
24.09.2023 00:58
Linkim not gonna describe the breaking point but it was very bad and his sister hates me now and we were friends
Moonstar[OP]
24.09.2023 00:59
Linki just
want to be loved again
i wish i was a better girlfriend
i wish i was a better friend
i wish i wasnt me
Moonstar[OP]
24.09.2023 01:03
Linkid give anything to be a better person and to change but i keep proving again and again that i wont change
i keep DOING THIS.
it happened with my parents
it happened with my uncle
it happened with the one person who actually truly loved me for who i was and who, most importantly, stayed.
i thought my life wouldnt change anymore.
I thought, "this is it. I dont need to keep changing anymore because this is where im going to be for the rest of my life
but no
now im told that i have to live alone
and i dont know if i can handle that
because i really really hate myself
idk if im going to hurt myself or starve myself or have the place im staying at broken into and i get killed by someone else
im so scared
Moonstar[OP]
24.09.2023 01:04
Linki wish he'd come back
Moonstar[OP]
24.09.2023 01:04
Linki wish i knew how to make everything better
Moonstar[OP]
24.09.2023 01:05
Linki wish i knew what was wrong with me
Moonstar[OP]
24.09.2023 01:06
Linki want to fix me but i dont know how
Moonstar[OP]
24.09.2023 01:09
Linki can say "i wish" all i want but it doesnt change the fact that he hates me now
and everyone who i know hates me
"maybe i will kill myself, nobody would miss me." i tell myself
but every time i think like that i remember my bf telling me that hed hate me even more if i killed myself and that id go to hell for killing myself and so i stay alive and keep suffering
i want to know why i cant change
Moonstar[OP]
24.09.2023 01:10
Linki keep pleading to god, "help me"
but he does not answer
i cry out in pain
and yet he ignores me
'i want to change' i say,
and he turns a blind eye
why?