I tried to understand why it is bad for me but i just dont :/ im not hurting anyone besides myself and i dont think its bad

Im not looking for comfort or anything its just weird . I dont understand how self harm is bad for me because its not permanent like why everyone thinks its a big deal obviously i dont want it happening to other people especially not my friends but for me i feel like its fine it i feel like it really doesnt effect me that bad

I cannot wrap my head around it And I dont even want help for it because its not bad for me And if my irl friends find out theyre gonna try to comfort me but ill just feel numb because i dont even need comfort. Self harm isnt bad for me and it doesnt make me sad... i wish theyd just be like oh you harm yourself thats okay and id be like yay thank you friend and then we would continue our friendship like nothing ever happened

I believe i did make a post about this in the past and some people tried to tell me why its bad and im pretty sure i just lied and pretended to understand but i dont wanna pretend anymore genuinely i dont care at all about my "addiction" and its not even bad for me i don't go too deep and besides i always wear hoodies so nobody even knows

If anyone wants to try and explain it to me you can try but ill be honest this time and i probably wont understand it