@---Fear---
by:
Shade-Is-Russian 
463
463
02.01.2023
74 comments
Shade-Is-Russian[OP]
02.01.2023 15:31
LinkI'm sorry for what I did, I had no clue how much I may have traumatized you, the whole "no regrets" was about hacking pian's account... Nothing I did was okay and I've changed quite a bit, and I can even apologize enough for what I did, and If I ever said I didn't regret it I really do, I'm so sorry for all of this. It was not okay....
Shade-Is-Russian[OP]
02.01.2023 15:31
LinkCan't*
Shade-Is-Russian[OP]
02.01.2023 15:36
LinkAnd I will say that I wasn't aware that you were getting over an abusive relationship and if I had know the effects of what I did back then I would have apologized so much sooner, I was always offline or busy in some way when you posted that stuff, I'm really sorry, I truly am... You don't have to accept my apology you really don't. I feel a lot of guilt for stuff I did in the past and I wish I never did anything like that with anyone... It wasn't okay at all... I don't think I was even aware of your age at the time either, and I know I've ****ed up big time and I truly am sorry.
Shade-Is-Russian[OP]
02.01.2023 15:41
LinkI'm very sorry for all of this, I guess I was never aware of how much damage I caused, and I think when I was younger I brushed it off and that wasn't okay...
I can't really accept your apology but I'm glad you're
Clearing things up since we were friends for a while I thought you actually saw the posts where I talked about it and how old I was since i posted it a while before
And I can't really believe you when you say you didn't see them since you were still following me and you were online for one of the posts
I usually space anything that looks venty, it's a bad habit of mine, that and I was coming on and off of fa for a while there, and it's okay that you don't accept my apology, I know what I did was ****ed up now..
In really glad you know its ****ed up and caused me a lot of harm
But another question is why did you silk ****ing follow me when I said I didn't want to even see you again
I don't even fully know, I have unfollowed you though... I usually don't really pay much attention to my followed these days either...
Thanks For that but if you're gonna keep on here don't srp with really immature people or don't even srp out side of your friend group its weird and disgusting
Were only a year apart but it was clear I was not as mature as you sexually or even mentally
I'm sorry about this all man... And I don't erp outside of my friend group anymore anyway... I think I erp the most with people that I've known for a long while and are older then me as well... And I wish I realized sooner that I was a bit to mature to be doing that with you...
Yeah you should have at that point because I didn't really want to get 'sex ed' while still recovering from what happened before
I don't even know if I realized that you were getting over an abusive relationship at the time either and I truly am sorry for all of the pain I have given you...
Thanks for actually giving an apology but still I can't even forgive you
That's understandable, I don't think I would even forgive myself if I was in your position...
I didn't know she/her made you uncomfortable... I didn't mean to tick you off, people slip up as well when it comes to pronouns, I slipped up thats all...
That's bull shit I've made mtas and I made introductions you just acting like we were never ****ing friends at any point in time is making me pissed
I've been openly he/they/it since I started fa
I get people slip but that's not really okay considering how much we used to talk and the fact you did call me he
I'm not trying to act like we weren't friends, I mess up all the time when it comes to pronouns, it honestly gets me confused sometimes, I won't do it again...
You just now apologized after getting called out by gorey I don't believe that you didn't know what you did was wrong and I find it hard to belive that you were offline whenever they made a post about what you did you should have made a apologize as soon as they said something not as soon as you got called out by a bigger account
I honestly don't know... I just spaced it I guess, and that's not okay...
Yeah no it's not and I still remember how you were werid with prettypaw and me but past is it the past with that stuff
Same with both of my friends why didn't you unfollow fear after they asked repeatedly that's the least you could do like
I don't know, I started to space their art after a while ... And I don't even think I fully knew it was the same untill recently...
How tf did you do forget that fears art looks like it does and that it belongs to another person??
I don't think I followed her account untill a good few weeks after she had left her old account, and I think I also forgot what her art from that account looked like...
When I said default I meant that my brain goes to default to she/her or he/him... And it's because those are the pronouns I see the most...
No what the **** I still never went by she and I addressed I was uncomfortable with she her a long time ago
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Anyways shade you should have apologized months ago and I don't belive any of your excuses
I'm not saying you have too, believe my excuses, but that's the honest truth, and I'm not saying my excuses were good ones either.
I was just trying to answer the questions you both had, and I answered them truthfully.
With excuses. That's not being truthful that's trying to excuse your actions with little to no responsibility for them.
Well it was not my intention for them to come off as such, I still accept full responsibility for my actions, I didn't mean for the reasons to come off as excuses then.
Partially because I didn't fully know what the word meant.. I thought it was another word for reasons ._.
No I'm 14, that's what I've always equated excuses to because that how my parents used the word.
Really? I know you're not that as stupid shade, you know what the word ment, this is just another excuse.
It's not an excuse it's the truth, I never bothered to look at the definition ever either.
I don't belive you I really can't I came from a background where I wasn't taught crap and I knew what excuses ment
Okay, I'm just being honest is all, hell I'm embarrassed for not fully knowing what it meant.
Yeah, you're spouting more bull. There no way you didn't know what it meant.
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Man I swear I didn't know what it meant, I know it's an stupid thing not to know...
You're damn right it's stupid. But how the f/CK could you not know what a word used so often meant?
Excuses definition attempt to lessen the blame attaching to (a fault or offense); seek to defend or justify.
The English language is an odd thing, definitions change often, I just looked it up like you said to demo
'attempt to lessen the blame attaching to (a fault or offense); seek to defend or justify'
Man how did I even think that it was a fancy word for reasons???
i really don't believe that you thought it was "just a fancy word for reasons"
i have the same question as demondrawings. Fear also told you to unfollow many times and you seemingly ignored them.
thats not okay.
Dude I honestly don't know, I know it's hard to believe... But I honestly space stuff that is posted by people, I often don't check past the first page, may because I'm semi-lazy, and after awhile I just kind of ignore stuff in my following... That's the best way I know how to say it...
Don't call me dude, im pissed at you. spacing is a stupid excuses, and if you really do ignore shit in your following there is no point in following people. you did something wrong, i called you out and suddenly you're apologetic.
if you really were sorry you would have done this way before i had said something.
It is the honest truth and I saw the post you made before the callout and I didn't read much of what you typed, but I went back and read fear's anims, and I was partially confused at first untill thought a bit more about it, then I realized what they were talking about... I had to think about how to type this apology as well...
No, like I said I didn't notice the posts before, possibly because pian may have been after my ass at the time as well, but I don't know... That and I spend quite a bit of time on discord now... In a way I did wait unknowingly, and I saw the post and felt horrible for the stuff...
Once more, Shade, if you really really felt that bad, you should have listened to Fear, unfollowed the first time and apologized.
My posts shouldn't have been why you made the apologize.
I just said that I didn't see their posts untill now... I'm not saying that I purposely ignored the posts either, I was probably a subconscious thing to space them... And I know they shouldn't've been what made me post an apology...
Again, if you don't pay attention to your following list, there's no point in following.
Your right on that, but I also don't want to go through and unfollow all 1377 people I follow... I don't even know why I follow that many people-