im so ****ing sick to my stomach im so nauseous im such a ****ing freak weirdo i cant believe im oike this

im so so sorry

ive just been so ****ed up. i just cant think straight and ive been feeling and doing shit thats making me lose mymind

i shouldnt be doing this i shouldnt be acting like this im so sorry

i literally cant even blame anyone or anything else its all me im such a degenerate

i hope i could be forgiven one day but im just such a mess i dont even see that in my future

it makes me so sick to check, to feel. every tim ei think i about it my stomachchurns and i just get this bolt of anxiety through my whole body and im just gonna be sick

i cant control it im losing my appetite my stomach hurts

this anxiety, this feeling, its destroying me from the inside out. why am i letting it. why am i letting you

im ****ing losing it im losing it

i dont know what to do i feel like im fdying it hurts so badly every time i experience an emotion im just so perpetually nervous and anxious and i just cant cope im falling apart

img onna throuw up.

ill delete this later or righth after in a few minute sidk im shaking i cant do this im so sick holt shit its killing me inside i cant take this anymor i cant take feeling emotions anymore i just need to be empty inside because it doesnt hurt as much

i think i want to be real, have emotion, love, but then i do and it just rips me apart i cant even describe how much pain im in

i never want to feel this way again. i will never feel this way again.

please dont let me feel this way ever again please