you guys are lucky, and I'm not sayin' that in a bad way, but in a good way because you guys really are lucky, and you guys are not only lucky, but are very kind, and understanding, and you might be wondering why are you saying that? I'm saying it, because you guys are the only people who are willing to, understand and listen, and you guys are the only people who know about pretty much everything about me, my pronouns, gender, sexuality, you know it, you name it. I can't really talk a lot about myself, because I'm never really open about anything, and I mean it when I say that, and it's crazy if you think about it. and I am grateful that I have only just a few people to listen to my interest and my identity and who I am, and I love that, I live for it. I've never had people (or a person) to talk about myself to, thus why the excessive amount of "imaginary friends" and whatever you call them, but it been really really hard for me, and these past few months of 2020, but that's the only reason