there is a pep rally tomorrow and I just dont want to have to go to school

pep rallies give me great amounts of stress and I will avoid them at all costs

also just like.bad mood

not great

feeling sick things are bad and Im thinking about it

jsjfjfhfh when you realize your entire life plan is dependent on your friends and you depend on them entirely for emotional stability and the one time you thought they might abandon you you realized the despair ypu felr and that if anything goes wrong with your friends and you you will probably just die

haha wish i wasnt such a dependant leech lol :^) wish I could survive on my own and not require other people parenting me to get by lol wish I was a capable person who could actually function properly lmao

I know I wont be able to survive on my own with the shitty kind of job Ill probably get cause Im gonna drop out most likely but I dont want to depend entirely on my friends cause I already feel selfish relying on them at all and

I cant drop out cause my dumb ****ing parents think finishing school no matter what as soon as possible is the most important th8ng in life haha yeah not my sanity, nah toss that out the window and just make you as stressed as humanly possible

god you have no idea how hard it is to try and tell people that there is someth8ng wrong when you cant tell them about it like uhuhuuhh dysphoria, homophobia, transphobia, cant say that stuff or else I will be killed on the spot lmao. consanrly thinking about dy8ng? way too concerning!!!!! 8m going to treatyou like a baby and make you extremely 7ncomfortable now!!!!!! because that is the only solution and I dont care how much you say you are uncomfortable I AM A DISTRESSED PARENT SO I CANT HELP IT 😢😢😢. jaaskdjdhfhhdhd. hypersexuality used as an unhealthy coping mechanism? YOURE A CHILD!!!! THATS NOT ALLOWED!!! trying to discuss that with an adult??? haha no thats the most uncomfortable idea ever lololol, you cannot recieve help for that or discuss it with anyone because it is an exteemely uncomfortable subject :^). Just generally unexplainable distress that becomes so overwhelming you cant handle it? haha looks like there is no problem lol deal with it on your own 🤷‍♂️🙂

the immense feeling that everything in the world is collapsing on top of you and you will never be able to live a remotely okay life and that you will die on the streets??? haha lol just try harder in school and you wont have to worry about it silly