yo dude i know how ****en hard it is sometimes and this is always said but like, it really aint worth it. cutting yourself isnt the answer to your problem/s. neither is suicide. not even a year ago i was struggling with the same shit; feeling useless, empty, and like a walking corpse. i know. it sucks. but if you can, seeing a psychiatrist can be suuuper helpful. ever since i had a psychiatrist, and was put on meds that worked for me, ive felt SO much better. it can work for you too. learn your coping skills and utilize them to the best of your best ability. you've got this.