wanna explain what happened?

We all do, Beary.. well atleast those of us who were unfortunate enough to not be popular or have any useful qualities in life. We all just have to grit our teeth and bare the pain. I sound insensitive but I'm not. I can't say I understand you either, every human mind perceives things differently than other minds, every human experiences different things. Each human reacts differently to situations. I will never truly understand how you feel. The mind is too complex to understand, emotions are too complex to be described as just 'sad' 'angry' or 'mad'. Just learn to withstand the storm, stand strong, stand tall... You decide your future, giving in to sadness and anxiety and anger will make you fail.. though that does not mean 'don't see a therapist' or any other form of help. I encourage that.. just don't give in. Don't give up.. Keep going.