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spaceguts[OP]
28.01.2019 12:57
Linkjust spilling some thoughts to clear our mind
-existential crisis
die is still going strong !! im at school so unless i steal the gun from the police officer person i can't do anything severe to harm myself or others, but im still mega depresso. i probably won't have the motivation to do any school work or draw anything actually worth it so don't expect anything grand or amazing today/tomorrow/for a couple days.
-identity crisis
i feel like i should use "we,us,our" instead of "i,me" since honest to god i feel like there's something else in my head. i've started doing it a bit with my amino friends, specifically my girlfriend, and it made me feel a little better even if it does feel weird. but yknow, split personality equality or whatever! yay !! don't be personalityist!
-just some other stuff
i suddenly care about people a lot less now. like, now that i've kind of fully acknowledged that life is meaningless, shitty and there's no reason to care about anyone or give a shit when they die, i suddenly
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spaceguts[OP]
28.01.2019 12:58
Link-feel like i have no friends and am single again oops
i feel like im going to be dead by tomorrow. it usually comes with or after a crisis, but thanks to there being two at once, it's double the die!! yay!!!
I don't really want to comment because I know it'll probably go in one ear and out the other, but I've got some free time.
So the whole life doesn't matter because when you die nothing matters and we all die eventually mindset. I talk about that a lot with my mom, and she always disagrees with me. I don't remember all her reasons but there was something like "you're saying we should just all die at birth because everything is pointless?" and that always pissed me off because I wasn't trying to say other people should die but mostly that the things they experience won't matter in the end. (I'm thinking this is why religions with afterlife can be so important to some people, it gives something to always look forwards to.)
I don't even remember what I was trying to say and I'm honestly half asleep anyway but I think the jist of it is; you're not alone, whether it be people actually near you, caring about you, thinking about you, or sharing your opinions/thoughts.
Also the us/we thing, do ahead and do that if
-truly makes you feel more comfortable, but make sure it's not feeding into some sort of belief that there are two of you or multiple personalities, like a good and bad side, I'm no expert but I feel like that could be harmful. But go for it if I have no idea what you mean.