I hate how I am the reason she keeps coughing it’s probably because she’s stressed that I won’t get into a good university since I refused to drop the IB program but I really want to push through incase I want to study outside of Canada but I know it hurts my mom more than me when I get a bad test and I hate the feeling sry I’m acc so sad rn I really wanna make her happy but I feel like I have severe adhd and can’t focus for the life of me

I love my mom and dad so much I don’t know why I can’t do the one thing that they want right. I get whatever I want, eat wherever and whenever and whatever, I tell them I wanna go to a party or need to drive hours away for a trip and they always say okay and free up their time so that I can go and all I return to them is being a lazy ass daughter who can’t do shit

I regret everytime I ****ing complained about my life because I’m actually the most privileged kid I know and I wish I had known that sooner. Idk why I’m ranting I just wanna say it somewhere because I’m acc such a dumb kid who can’t do anything right and that makes me angry

Probably won’t be on for a while.