*puts the gun in my mouth*

Ok sorry that's not appropriate

This isn't some thing that I searched up and went "oh haha yeah thats me" No I've been researching this for 2 whole months since the symptoms grew more obvious and um yeah I've tried killing myself twice over this btw IM SO MENTALLY STABLE AND NORMAL

The denial and the self-doubt is so strong no one tells you how bad this is Its so stressful its genuinely why my mental health plummeted and why I haven't been doing schoolwork shit so bad my teacher deadass dropped me

I'm fine right now I'm more grounded and less negative but I can't ignore how my head is throbbijg. I was originally not going to post about this at all but I need an outlet and I need to document . This is extremely embarrassing for me and has affected me extremely negatively

Makes me hate the people who romanticize disorders like these this shit isn't fun this ain't all sunshine and rainbows lil bro 😭😭😭😭

Hate them even more**** sorry I've been typing without reading and it's making me forget words

Um I was gonna say something else but AYDIN ****ing distracted me and i forgot

Anyways yeah this sucks it's genuinely so hard not to resort to suicide because of this it's not a solution and won't make me feel any better I need to push through this until November or December when I can see my psychiatrist and tell him about it

I just hope everything goes well when the testing shit happens if something goes wrong and it has to be delayed more than it already has I'll genuinely freak out and in a really bad way this isn't fun man

I wish there was more information on this shit I wish there was more awareness why is there not enough resources why is there almost nothing ? This is so stressful and scary

It's extremely scary and sudden and . Just. Idk bro

I keep yelling at myself ohhh if it was osdd I would've KNOWN i swear i would've known i'm so SELF AWARE i'd definitely know!!! (-guy who didn't even realize hes dissociated for most of his life until now)

Same Guy who said he's too self aware to experience delusions then experienced psychosis a month or two later btw same ****ing guy same same guy who Same guy who

God was like nah psychosis isn't enough I'm going to make you realize something severe you were unaware of for almost your entire life

**** this guy in particular

I don't like how a whole new perspective was revealed to me and how the more I think about it the more everything starts clicking and making sense PLEASE BRO

I'm slowly trying to wiggle out of being in denial because it's making it worse and hurting me and causing me stress but it's so ****ing hard to not be in denial because if you live me and my life and you know me I'm ALWAYS ONTOP OF THINGS OKAY IM ALWAYS ONTO THINGS I ALWAYS JNOW IM ALWAYS AWARE I SHOULD ALWAYS BE AWARE OF MYSELF THIS WAS AN EXTREME L I JUST TOOK OKAY IM.

I need to stop treating myself like I'm a fully grown adult who's frontal lobe is fully developed

Child when child realizes they're still developing and obviously if they're traumatized stupid shit is going to keep popping up

Sigh. Crazy frog

My saviour.... thank you...🐤

Omg die

I'm sorry okay I'm sorr

What kind of pervert eats foreskin dni faggot

You're sick in the head

DIEEE

Hello Finn

LMAO WTF

Im a yummy tumy funny lucky gummy bear

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=d4aBArP0zt8

I ok

The ending is actuallg neutral if u think about it cus u don't know what happens to the blonde girls what if they all killed themselves after this and the girl who got bullied felt guilty cus of it