@XxDolly-Daze @xXSlayerXx
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CoffeeMilk 
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08.02.2020
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CoffeeMilk[OP]
08.02.2020 17:15
Linkcan we please talk?
guys, i know this is probably nothing and i'm just mentally freaking out...but like;
I'm stuck in the middle with whatever is going on between us 3. i feel tension and jealousy and hurt..
i could honestly be wrong, its just i want for everything to smooth out...
It's all me. I'm the one who's causing the tension and jealousy.
I'm the one who isn't comfortable with this. I'm just making it harder to do this. I dont know if I can do this. And I love you a lot, I really do. But I'm just not sure this 3-way thing is going to work for me. I'm just so obsessive and get jealous easily, and I just dont know how much longer I can do this.
I get if you want to just find a different way to do this but I'm just being a bit stiff about this. It used to be just us two, but now that it's 3 I feel like I cant return everything without being even a bit hurt, even though i know you love us both equally...
Y'all were both happy before I barged in, If you want I can leave you two be. I don't wanna ruin your relationship..I understand what you mean with the jealousy, But if it makes you uncomfortable I will leave you two be..As much as I don't want to, i will and can
I feel so guilty now. I want us all to be happy, but I don't know if I can emotionally stand to give up my happiness for yours. And sometimes I'm tempted to... I'd rather put others before myself..
I don't want you to be sad and/or feel left out, i want you both to be happy again. If it means I gotta stay away..I guess that'll be it. I want you two to feel comfortable with each other, and without me ruining it.
But I want you to be happy too. I dont want any of us to feel hurt or left out..
Taylor, i know this is hard...and i made even more ****ing difficult, by adding a poly relationship into this, and flirting with Mya, with the acknowledgement of how hard this is for both of us. im so so sorry..
**** im such a god damn idiot.
mya, ...i-i don't know how to answer for taylor's part but i know that i don't want you to leave..
...
Just tell me what I can do to fix everything, to make you feel better.
I knew that I wouldnt be comfotable with this.
I just wanted you to be happy with me
And not think I was so concerned about myself...
i can't tell you anything to make this situation any better...because then it will make this worse..And i AM happy with you, nothing could make me feel the opposite of that..
and i knew that you may not be comfortable with this poly relationship....i want to make YOU the happier person...but i was thinking only about me, i was self-centered and not thinking about any outcome on your part..
I just...
I dont wanna sound like a self-centered bish, but...
I just want everything to go back to the way it was.
It was way less stressful then. And I cant handle stress well. And now I'm trying my best to get through this, I'm trying to change so that this works, but I just dont think it will.
I just want it to be the two of us again...
But if you want something else I can try my best to be flexible..
I'm sorry! I just want everything to be like it was before.
I knew it would hurt you and Mya...
I just...
I'm sorry. I just want it to be how it used to be....
......i have no reaction to that..its not your fault.
im just emotionless, like always and don't really think ahead before i give an action...
s o...
are we all on good terms...??
I'm so so sorry if i hurt you guys.
plus i don't want to cross any boundaries with flirting.. or centered attention on one qt, even tho y'all both big qt beans, who deserve all meh lob. <3