i really hate my dad, i really ****ing hate him. hes been taking money from my grandma, he beats my little brother senseless for the dumbest shit, and he just thinks hes perfect. hes told me my whole life that im worthless and ugly and disgusting and that no one will ever love me. hes told me to kill myself and threatened to kill me more times than i can count. hes stopped hitting me buts because ive started fighting back. he hits wes because hes too young to defend himself. i try my hardest to protect him but im too weak to do anything, according to my dad. he left me, he abbonded me(for drugs!) when i was barely a year old and then just popped up again and he does all this shit and expects me to love him. he wants respect but then treats all of us like dirt. i hate him, i hope he dies, i really do. he calls me slurs, he ****ing calls everyone slurs. hes slammed my head into walls, we have ****ing holes in the wall from it. hes only ever hurt people but he thinks hes some god. i hate him, i really hate him.